Photo Description:

Atyrau, Kazakhstan, 1998. Both of my grandfathers were history professors. . Behind me is the "Shezhire," our family's genealogical tree, proudly displayed, representing our rich heritage and deep connection to history.

Secret Poetry

When I was a teenager, I had a secret poetry blog on Vkontakte, written in Russian. The name of the blog was “Selling Feeling with Poetry.” I wrote poems inspired by the songs I listened to and the photos I stared at, expressing my teenage feelings. Additionally, I would add aesthetically inspiring photos and songs. At that age, I was inspired by Ludovico Einaudi.

Blog Essence
The blog was more than words—it was a secret world, a personal gallery where music, imagery, and poetry converged. Each post was an intimate confession, carefully curated to reflect the complex emotional terrain of adolescence.

Echoes of Youth: A Teenager’s Brush with Creativity

Reflections in Color: An Adult’s Journey Through Painting

Birthday gift for my friend who Loves Totoro

“Difficult Choice”

This painting portrays the emotional turmoil of women facing abortion decisions. A blindfolded woman with tears symbolizes societal judgment and inner conflict. Below, a glowing orb with a child and the words "forgive me" reflect regret and a yearning for peace. The background blends pink and purple, representing compassion and healing, while the heart in the corner signifies love amid pain.

I drew inspiration from my friend, who made a difficult choice and regrets it years later. In this painting, she prays for forgiveness, and her aura clears with light, but the angel baby cannot still forgive her.

Globally, over 73 million abortions occur annually, with many women facing stigma or lack of access to care. Nearly 1 in 3 women worldwide experiences physical or sexual violence, often leading to unplanned pregnancies. This artwork sheds light on these realities, urging empathy and support for women navigating such challenges.

“Night Rituals”

Painting with gold paper flakes

In 2019, I won 2nd place at the Genentech Art Competition in Hillsboro, Oregon, with my painting inspired by Le Petit Prince. This piece, depicting the iconic character reaching for a rose under a glowing crescent moon, was designed to evoke a sense of nostalgia and wonder. I aimed to create a glimpse of childhood innocence and imagination through vibrant colors and a dreamy composition. I wanted viewers to reconnect with the timeless message of Le Petit Prince—the beauty of simplicity, love, and seeing the world through the eyes of a child. Winning this award was not just a recognition of my art but also a validation of my intention to inspire others through creativity.

The first painting represents the ongoing struggle against pollution in our seas, capturing the delicate balance between nature and humanity’s responsibility to protect it. The interplay of colors and imagery symbolizes both the beauty of marine life and the threats it faces from pollution and neglect. My deepest heartbreak with the Caspian Sea lies in witnessing the helplessness of its animals—trapped, powerless, and unable to save their environment from the pollution we humans create. This is why I depicted mermaids swimming away in shock, embodying the despair and urgency of protecting our fragile ecosystems.

Together, these pieces reflect both environmental and emotional themes, urging us to care for our world and cherish the innocence within ourselves.

My favorite model Mădălina Diana Ghenea